Have I Lost My Ability to Believe?

Caleb, my son, is back in jail.After a three-month “run” on heroin, cocaine and other cocktails, he was picked up on a breach of the conditions of his release. No new charges; only the past with which...

Waiting for News While On the Edge

The tide was out, and the gulls were quiet, floating just offshore of Rathtrevor Beach. The tide would turn soon but, at this moment, the air was fresh, scented with just a tinge of seaweed, the breez...

Staying Afloat in Waves of Grief

Twice in four days I turned for a last look, once knowing I would never see her again, the other wondering if this was my last glimpse of him.Two weeks ago Thursday night, my wife Gaye and I saw Caleb...

If I relapse…. (Caleb)

Caleb was released into a native recovery house the middle of May. I talked with him by phone on May 16th. He sounded positive and happy. When Gaye and I arrived home from vacation nine days late...

Once in a Lifetime (Caleb)

This is the story of how everything changed for me.I was 34 years old and in a detox facility in Victoria, probably for the second or third time that year. I have always met solid people in detox faci...

Staying Clean (Caleb)

I have every reason in the world to stay clean. My family has shown an indescribable level of forgiveness and support. My beautiful companion has given me the most wonderful gift of trust, respect, ho...

Teenage Wasteland (Caleb)

I wish I could gloss over my teen years. Some parts though were important to my identity.As a Cree person growing up away from home, culture, family, peers and teachings I sought out an identity that ...

Been Caught Stealing (Caleb)

I began stealing at a very young age. The first thing I remember stealing was a $50 bill out of an envelope from my aunty to my Mom. I told my Mom I found $50 blowing in the wind while I was playing a...

The Allure of Romanticism

I could not see myself in Caleb; so, often, being a father to him felt like having to take my best guess.We are a blended family with five children - four daughters and one son. Usually, my wife or I ...